Stay Positive

Haha! Have not written two post on the same day. Shiok? :P Just that I find this quite interesting so I decided to blog on it. As I keep on blogging LOA, I think a lot of people going to think I am crazy, but never mind that, I believe in it and that counts most. Today I made a request to see a person, thinking that since I would not be around from tomolo onwards, but there is a change in schedule, so no need lah! But at the end, I still met her, two times somemore. Well the response is within my expectations, but it still felt overwhelming. Took me quite a while to refrain myself from going into negative, and I do admit my emotional muscle is not strong enough as I went into relapses, as in slump into negative emotions quite a few times. Either my 'training' not enough or the feeling is too much. If it is the latter, that means I have place too much value in this, but another point of view is I have put in a lot of effort and time. Oh and before anyone said that I am irrational, I still have a clear mind.

Remember I said, my friends said things were optimistic but I refused to be. It is right not to be too optimistic.

After I left the MRT, I made a vow to start thinking positive. Initially, a bit difficult, but I 'forced' myself, haha, then I realise that I miss my bus， this lead to me to realise that I am focusing on negative stuff again. So I start thinking gd thoughts as I am at the bus stop, within 5 mins (usually the next bus will come 10 mins later), my bus came, and I made a request that the bus door will stop in front of me. Surprise surprise, the bus stop in front of me. Nice :D

Well they may be small things to me, but it makes me realise that as long as I think and feel positive, I shall be rewarded with more good stuff! Hehe! Go with the flow. As long as I keep on visualizing the future, take positive steps, we will be together. I still believe my main purpose in the center has not been achieved yet.

She is definitely worth the wait and I am sure what I want. Now I need the strength to ride on this emotional roller coaster. Hold on tight :P . Last one week really drained most of my emotional muscle strength. Need to recharge! Yeah!!!

To the good friend who agree to help, thank you very much, I know it is challenging. No words can measure how much appreciation I have for the help. I promise to make an effort as well and by all means scold me when needed, definitely will not have hard feelings. :) I shall not give up.

Thank you very much for seeing her and thank you for surrounding me with so many good friends. Cheers!