Strange

Well, today I went back alone, without the company of any colleagues and friends. It is the first time since don't know when. Well I actually needed it, cos I don't feel like talking anyway. I just need some quiet moment to think things through.

Today, the event of things is very strange. My good friend manage to have a health talk held at our company, so I was there to help out. Because it is business as usual, so I like the adrenaline rush, waiting for the unexpected to happen so I can use my 'smarts' to counter it and so on. I like doing business because it force me to think faster and better which is good and these are practical experience that I bring with me wherever I go so I love it. After the talk, we have lunch with the company that arrange for the speaker. It was nice chatting with new people because there are exchange of ideas and where to holiday, since the June hols are here. Haha! But one downside of chatting with new people is that there maybe sudden period of silent because no one have any idea how to start another conversation, and it becomes eerily quiet. I am sure most readers have experience it.

Anyway, after sending them off, I manage to have a good rest before I get back to my work. Then something happen and my whole mood change. The mood is very strange, and I simply cannot figure out why I have such feelings although I know what caused it. It is a feeling that tells me something is not right, there is something I am angry about but I do not feel angry and in fact I can break into a smile, several times somemore. I know I know. You might say I am ready for the Hougang Country Club if that is the case, but no, I am still sane.

It seems like there is something I need to put some serious thoughts into it. Might have to take the next few days to sort things out. Might need some peace to think through it properly. For readers who know me, if you see me like very moody, please pardon me. I might not want to talk. :) The effect of the decision after the thought process might be large so I need to think it through properly. Well mentally exhausted but not physically tired. I need to stop here for this post.

Cheers!