False Happiness

Heard this song when I went back home today. Today I have to go back home alone, so I have some time to myself, to connect to myself. As I put on my MP3 player to listen to the radio, this song came up, Richard Marx-Right Here Waiting



I know it is an old song but it never fails to tug my heart strings although at the moment now I have no one to sing this song too. =P

Oh before I carry on with this blog entry, I would like to recommend a book to all readers. I have read only a few pages of it but I benefited greatly from it and I am sure most people would love the book as well, because it serves as a reminder to the reason why we are on this earth. Check the book out. It consists of many short stories so should be easy read for readers. The book is titled "Who will cry when you die?" by Robin Sharma.

Anyway, the main point of this blog. Was having a 'nice' dream yesterday. I dreamt that I finally have a gf and it is my dream (no pun intended) girl. (Haha, can see that I am desperate hor? No lah, of cos not. I don't have control what I dreamt)

The minute that I dreamt that I held her hands, I can actually feel the adrenaline rush through my body. But then, I begin to realize that this is all a dream, indulging in it would definitely make me feel good for the day, but I also realise that given my character, it would make me more attach to my dream girl because I know given the current situation, it is difficult to have her as a gf. So given this thought that I have, I woke up immediately. Yes, I am sure a lot of readers would say, why not carry on? There is no harm, since cannot have her as a gf in reality, at least can have her as a gf in my dreams. But like I said, I know myself. It would only make me think of my current situation now and then start 'torturing' myself. Haha, I do admit that I have some regrets for waking up from such a GREAT dreams. But I know I made a right decision by waking up from it instead of indulging. I am not going to trade a few minutes of non-concrete happiness for a few days worth of unhappiness.

Anyway, the dream's detail did stay in my mind vividly. My skin can actually feel her touch even till now, see how the mind can play great tricks on you. We all know that when we dream, it is very difficult to remember the full details of the dreams, like what clothes you wear, what conversation you have and so on, but for me this whole dream has full details as though it really did happen in my life, like what clothes she and I wear, where we went, what we did and so on. So much so like I mentioned just now I can 'feel' her.

Ok why I am writing this is to show the readers, how your mind can play tricks on you, for instance I can 'feel' the touch, remember the full details including feelings and emotions. The best 'defense' against it is to stay mindful about the situation and not be tricked by it.

Cheers! =)