Give me an Excuse

Today, I am very angry at myself. Why? Well, I look back at what I have achieved so far in life, after two years of pursuit, what I envision I would be now two years ago, compare to the actual situation now, seems so different. Argh!!!

Business wise, it is moving very slowly. Too slow in my opinion, I am working hard to make things happen faster but then there is a limit to how much I can push myself. Love life? What more can I say, I met the ideal girl but I cannot go after her because I do not want 'trouble' and she is attached. All I can say, we are now very good friends. She shares her secrets with me, shares what problems she met, shares her happy moments in the office with me, even what happens to her bf (not everything, of course). This is how Life plays the joke on me! Let me know the ideal girl, become good friends and colleagues but CANNOT move forward! Shucks! Torturous! Must try to laugh it off. =)

I also feel that there are so many things beyond my control. Best friend wedding at the end of the year, but I cannot attend because of my MBA time-table issue. Money seems to be flowing out faster, cannot find a meal during lunch time that can keep me full till dinner time. Am trying to live within budget because I have to save for the MBA tuition fees, but it has become really challenging. Maybe I should get a smaller belt. The MBA program allowed me to have a more disciplined learning, but it is tiring me out because of the amount of readings, grp meetings and assignments! Want to have a rest also very difficult to find time to rest! I do not regret taking the MBA but I wish I can have a proper rest now.

Ok finish complaining! Now comes something more useful for my readers, since they have sit through my complaints. In life, we always know that we need to fight for what we want or I assume more people does. For instance, you want to ask someone if he or she will help. You know that you need to open your mouth and ask otherwise how would the person know you need his/her help. I wonder if the following is familiar to you. Have you come across a time when you needed something from someone, say for instance you need to borrow $50 from a friend, to buy that particular gift for your spouse? Now even before you start to open your mouth, your mind starts to give you a lesson in "1001 reason why you cannot borrow $$ from good friends" "No lah, properly he does not have enough money for me?", "No lah, he very busy now. I do not want to disturb him." "No lah, he might charge me an interest.".

Before you even attempt to tempt probability, you already eliminated the chance of getting what you want by YOU, yourself, helping that person to find excuses to reject your request. Don't you find it ridiculous? You, yourself, kill your chance of succeeding!! Remember, don't kill yourself, don't give so much excuses. As Nike says, "Just Do It" and then let the fate decide if you will succeed or not.

Ok, before I end this blog entry, would like to leave readers with this song that I come across in Youtube. I am sure most people are familiar with this song. The title is "How Do I Live" Like to dedicate this song to someone but I guess she will never hear of it, but anyway, no excuse given! I am dedicating this song to YOU. =) And for readers, thanks again for listening to my complaints. I hope the lesson above is enough to pay you for your attention.



Cheers!