Sticky sticky!

I am sure most of us have tried to kick a bad habit. For instance, to get rid of that addiction of cigarettes, watching soccer, reading books, gambling and so on. It can really get very annoying in the first place because suddenly the thing that you want to get rid of gets to pop up very often, more often when you have not decide to kick it, or still indulging in it.

Well it happen to me as well. But mine is not something that is an inanimate thing like a book or a smoke where as long as you maintain a distance for the longest period, you will be able to kick it, not addicted to it.

Haha, this might sound confusing to readers but if you have follow what I have written so far, I am sure you know what I mean. Not to be 'addicted' about it would take greater effort because firstly I cannot stay a distance because that could cause an effect on other areas of my life. That is one challenge, so I have to be continuously 'exposed' to it.

The thing is when I am exposed to it, I keep on finding more things that we agree upon, more similarities in our thinking and preference and how good at pointing out a different perspective of looking at things for me. Of course, this is not something like what Ajahn Brahm said that before marriage, we always see the beautiful side of our partner but once we get married and gets into a quarrel, we start to dwell on their ugly side and forget that it was a few months ago we married "The most beautiful lady/The most handsome man on Earth!"

I also saw the weaknesses that she have and actually have pointed it out to her and help to rectify it. Every time I find out the similarity that we have, the more difficult it is for me to 'tear' myself off, because I am amazed at how much we agree upon. Every time we discuss something, she is able to point out a different but credible perspective for me to contemplate. That is why I like to discuss issues with her, cos it set me thinking and in more interesting point of view. Each discussion or chat that I have her, makes me yearn more that we can be together. And it also makes me treasure whatever time we have together.

Today, something great happen to me, my group assignment actually scored a distinction. The first person I want to share my joy with is her. And sometime when I start trading 'insults' with a colleague, to liven up the situation, she will also tried to help me and put in good words for me so that my colleague will have 'mercy' on me. =)

Why let me know her? Why?!?!

Have to continue to 'forget' about her and move on.

Anyway, would like to share a song with all readers. I am sure one of my best friend would find this song familiar. Yes it is the ending song of Healing Hand III. And I am dedicating this song to her although she will not be able to hear it. =)

To other readers, have fun with the rest of week. Cheers!